Friday, September 5, 2008

Three Little Letters

I don't consider myself to be a fearful person. (Unless cooling towers are involved) I've come a long way from the girl who was painfully shy in public and afraid of MANY things in life. However, after a rather frightening dream last night, I have to add something to the short list of things that strike fear into the core of my heart. And it's letters are E.P.T. As in Early Pregnancy Test.

Now, before any of you have a stroke, let me ASSURE you that I am in fact NOT PREGNANT. Nor do I ever wish to be again. However, I had this dream last night that I took 3 pregnancy tests and there they all were staring me back in the face saying "You're going to be a mommy again!" Pardon me, I just blacked out there for a moment.

I love my 2 girls, despite the amounts of vomit I've dealt with this week. But I HATED being pregnant. Especially when I was pregnant with Little A. It was misery covered in awful served with a side of putrid. I had horrible morning/noon/night sickness, way past the 1st trimester mark and there were a whole host of new problems during my pregnancy with Little A that landed me at the hospital a couple of times. No fun.

I had always dreamt of being this adorabe little pregnant girl with the tiny figure and the baby bump who coasted through the 9+ months with nary a care in the world aside from picking out nursery colors and furniture. Suffice it to say, the dream was never close to the reality.

I envy women out there who have these glorious pregnancies over and over again. I really would like to have a bigger family, but I'm not willing to use my body as the vehicle to make that happen...again.

So, what about you? Did you (or your significant other) have great or awful pregnancies? Are you finished having kids? Are you afraid of the pee-pee stick too?

13 comments:

Alyce said...

I had two tough pregnancies too, and that was enough for us. It's funny because I thought my husband was content with two kids because he didn't want to have to deal with how awful I was to be around during pregnancy. We talked about it recently and he finally told me that it was actually because he was scared for my health that he didn't want to have any more kids. I was touched. :)

Nik said...

Cowboy was a rough pregnancy on many fronts - my health, his health - being miserable. I had to be induced with him on Dec 22nd (joy to the world, peace on earth and all that jazz during the massive ice storm that hit that year).

Now Itchy - Did I really carry him? Is that child birthed from my loins? I have no clue. We were so busy with Cowboy's therapy appts and carting all around TN that my pregnancy with Itchy is a blur. I was induced with him as well but not before Cowboy and I hit two more therapy appts the day before. Delivery was easy and on Thursday and I had Cowboy back at therapy appts by Tuesday.

Will we have another? Not a clue - do we have the desire to have another...well we don't have the desire NOT to.

Hot Tub Lizzy said...

It was misery covered in awful served with a side of putrid.
Hands down my favorite sentance in a LONG time!!

With both girls I had terrible headaches. But other than the headaches, Essie wasn't a problem.

Gert... Gert... Gert... I ate NOTHING for about 4 months with Gert. Lost 20 pounds, had a headache ALL the time, couldn't stand the smell of ANYTHING and she sat on my siatic (is that how you spell it) nerve for about 6 months - I could only stand up for about 3 minutes at a time...

As much as I would love to have a baby with Mr. B, a - he's fixed and b - I think we'll have our hands full enough.

Shannon said...

Ok, please don't hate me... but I had two (pretty much) uneventful pregnancies! I never had morning sickness... my problems were from swelling. It was so bad with DP that I was put on moderate bed rest two weeks before her due date. I swelled with LM, too, but not half as bad as I did with DP... no bed rest the 2nd time around. But I do say I would rather do childbirth again than be preggers for nine months... ugh, getting fat, the mood swings, not being able to sleep, the swelling...

Shane has been "snipped" :) ...so no more babies for us. There are times I wish we would have another (especially lately being around Hillary's new one!)

Therese said...

I have had really bad first trimesters turn into wonderful pregnancies with all of my boys...we hope and pray to have more!

Jenn said...

First one not sick at all,the next three felt like I had the worst hangover ever all day everyday for the first 12-13 weeks.
I want one more and soon..I'm getting old I need to do it soon ,my husband wants to wait for a year though so we will see!

Whenever it happens ,it will be the last. I just want our 7 month old son to have someone to grow up with ,my other three are way older then him at 15,13,11.

Kat said...

If I was younger. Thinner. I would soooo be a surrogate. I had two very easy peasy pregnancies. My metabolism worked for the very first time - and I lost a ton of weight with both pregnancies. Hey. Maybe this should be my new diet plan! I felt great. And the deliveries were easy, too. I think that is the purpose of these ginormous hips.

And I will tell you that I am quite frightened of pregnancy tests, too. Because I am done adding to my family. And because I am really not sure how I got pregnant in the first place. Both times. Fertile Myrtle here.

Michelle said...

Well, yeah we're done. Way done. And of course I'm afraid of that pee stick! I do a little happy dance every month, trust me.

But sorry, I was one of the happy pregnancy people. Not sick, didn't over or under gain weight, never had to get up in the middle of the night to pee, nothing. I really should hire myself out to have people's babies!

Lula! said...

Wow...
And here I was freaking out over my dream from last night. It involved a fellow bloggy pal AND a heartthrob from my high school days. Embarrassing...

Jane said...

Through having kids!!! I know you understand "put me in Moccasin Bend" I would FREAK!! 3 out of 4 pregnancies were miserable, pre-term labor, pre-eclampsia, 9 min labor, etc, etc. Love my 4 and enjoyed my one good pregnancy, but also love my sanity especially at my age, and you know how old that is!!!

Angela said...

Oh, man. You know my fears on this issue and I'm going to have to quit reading these stories NOW or I will never get pregnant, LOL! I just know I won't be like Kat or Michelle. ;-)

Kelly said...

I turn in to a whiney, binge eating big old baby...not.pleasant! If I could jump right to delivery, I would have 12 kids...

Beth said...

M was my worst pregnancy. I was sick every five minutes for 8 months. Seriously green. My next pregnancy was my blessing. It renewed anything that I could have hated about pregnancy. However M is a handful and he alone is what terrifies me about having more children! S wants more but I'm not on board. He really wants a girl... you can't guarantee it for me... so NO. effing. way! lol

 

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