Sunday, February 26, 2012

The Sunday Skinny

This was a really tough week. Let's see the results.

Starting Weight: 218.7 lbs
Last Week's Weight: 215.0 lbs
This Week's Weight: 213.8 lbs
+Gain/-Loss This Week: -1.2 lbs
+Gain/-Loss Overall: -4.9 lbs

I had a lot of really low point mood swings this past week. It pains me that I'm crying over food, but honestly, it's not really the lack of food that's so upsetting I guess. I'm having a really hard time dealing with the fact that I've gotten myself into this situation and it's my own fault that I'm now having to take such drastic measures to get where I need to be. The fact that it's so slow going is also very frustrating. I know that I didn't put all of this weight on overnight, but I'm so driven to get this weight off now, that it's just not coming off as fast as I would like. I'll accept it sooner or later...I just hope it's sooner.

This weekend was super tough because I went on a scrapbooking retreat where all of the meals were prepared for me and I had no idea ahead of time what would be served. Dinner Friday went fine and I sailed through breakfast & lunch yesterday, but that's when the ship started to sink. For dinner last night, every single thing served was loaded with carbs and definitely NOT on my approved food list. I could either suck it up and eat a little of the contraband or go hungry and this girl doesn't just go hungry. Within 20 minutes of eating the stuff, I had such horrible guilt that I nearly made myself vomit. Horrible. And then this morning, they served hash brown potato casserole and quiche, which are also 2 no-no's. I managed to scrape the crust off the quiche and pray that the small slice I ate wasn't too bad on my diet.

So, let's move on from my depressing rant. I'm now feeling more motivated to start exercising, which is great. Guilt can be a handy tool sometimes! My goal is to get in 4 workouts this week and to stick really close to my diet. I know that falling of the wagon this weekend isn't the end of the world, but I'm so paranoid about falling into those old habits. Thanks for the support!


Kat said...

I am so sorry that you had a rough weekend - it's so hard when you are first starting to be out of your element. The first time I did Atkins, I went to a CM conference in MN - and I took food with me -- tuna and little packets of mayo/mustard from chickfila and some Atkins shakes. I always wondered what the airline employees thought as they scanned my bags!

But - I know you can do this - and it will get easier!!

Shannon said...

Well, we've already talked about this. And I know you're over it now. So just keep it in the past... you did what you had to do. And if the same situation happens again, try not to beat yourself up about it!

Focus on getting back on track with your meals this week and get your workouts in... and you'll be fine! :)

Cerise said...

It is super hard when you are faced with either going hungry or feeling guity about eating the only option in front of you. The guilt used to be awful for me in the begining...lots of tears were shed, sometimes I even wanted to give up. But I found that in my case excerise ALWAYS makes that guilt go away.
Good Luck this week! You can do it!!

The Misses said...

Oh Angie I'm currently dieting too and believe me I have shed many tears over food. It's definitely hard to stick with it. But knowing you I know that you CAN do this. Be thankful for any loss no matter how big or small. A loss is a loss. You're doing great! Keep it up girl.

brainella said...

Oh, Angie -- that sucks. My philosophy has become, "one day at a time." It didn't derail you but motivated you.

You are not alone in your battle against food. Trust me. I've only been doing WW for two weeks but I feel like I walk around with a measuring cup in my pocket all the time. :)

Yay for loss! As my mother (bless her heart) always tells me...Onward and upward! :-)


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